Twenty Eight

Today is my 28th birthday.

I started the day off right by burning my Lavender Latte and making a huge mess all over the stove top. I may be another year older, but still can not multitask to save my life!

Birthdays tend to be a reflective time for me. I was thinking about where I was 10 years ago, and how much I have changed since then.

At 18, there is that pressure of deciding what you want your life to look like in 10 years. For me, I had my whole life planned out at 18. I knew exactly what I wanted and in what order, at what age, the works.

You know how everyone tells you that life never works out the way you plan? Funny thing... they were right!

By 28 I had planned for Ryan and I to have like 3 kids already and be settled in our forever home, all ready to enjoy the rest of our lives.

Oh and I had envisioned having perfect skin, to be done with the ups and downs of teenager skin issues. Well, I woke up this morning with a nice big pimple on my chin. Happy Birthday to me!

I also did not plan to be wearing a heart monitor on my 28th, but here it is, and I've gotta say my skin itches so bad! So uncomfortable, but I only have to put up with it for two weeks...

But in all seriousness, I am glad things did not go exactly to plan. I know now that I would not have been ready for 3 kids the last few years. Instead, I have had time to learn things about myself (like that I do not handle stress well at all), grew as an artist and entrepreneur and spent the last eight years with my best friend, just the two of us.

I'm not saying it has been an easy ten years, there have been so many ups and downs. There's still a lot of things going on in our lives that are not resolved and honestly causing my anxiety to show up often, but yet I wouldn't change any of it.

I think it's time to toss that 18 year old's ten year plan out the window. I no longer need to rely on it because I have already arrived in just the way I was suppose to.

So here's to another year of growth, learning and not forgetting to breathe, but most importantly... just living.


With Love,